River

When I was packing up our overload of Christmas decorations in January, I was careful to make a separate box for Her. Most of what we deck the halls with is mine from my Mom, or stuff I've added to the collection over the years. She has a few ornaments from her Mother also, but everything fit into one box apart from mine.

I did the same in the closets when Spring cleaning came around. I pulled out keepsakes and nick-knack crap that had been all shoved together in one place. Under the pretense of cleaning, I made Her a few boxes with Her name on them. Same with pictures and old clothes. Her books are all together on one shelf. Her CD's- together in the lower left of the cabinet.

I spent several months untangling our belongings. I figured I could make a relatively swift getaway if I didn't have to stop and sort things we've collected over the past decade or so.

Now, the Holidays are here again. Turkey with [the broken pieces of] my family next week. Christmas at our house not long after that. The decorations will be unpacked and co-mingled, creating the task of sorting them all over again. I've wasted a another year being sad. Not entirely sad, I guess, but still time wasted.

I wish I could say that something will change soon. I wish I could say that I have a solid plan, but I don't. I have a vague idea of what I would do to get out. I have family and friends that would support me. I already have invitations to stay several places as long as I need. The generosity is wonderful and I haven't had the heart to tell them I wouldn't need it.

If I go, it will be a cataclysmic change. I will go far away from here on my own. Where my sick brother lives is beautiful. They only get a little snow, so maybe I would end up there. He won't know me by then, but I could do my sisterly duty and check in. That would be about far enough East that I wouldn't be visited often.

Still, like I said, I'm not going anywhere soon. It's just a daydream right now, but to be honest, I don't know exactly what I am waiting for.

Joni Mitchell

RIVER

It's coming on Christmas

They're cutting down trees

They're putting up reindeer

And singing songs of joy and peace

Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on

But it don't snow here

It stays pretty green

I'm going to make a lot of money

Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene

I wish I had a riverI could skate away on

I wish I had a river so long

I would teach my feet to fly

Oh I wish I had a river

I could skate away on

I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me

You know, he put me at ease

And he loved me so naughty

Made me weak in the knees

Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on

I'm so hard to handle

I'm selfish and I'm sad

Now I've gone and lost the best baby

That I ever had

Oh I wish I had a river

I could skate away on

I wish I had a river so long

I would teach my feet to fly

Oh I wish I had a river

I made my baby say goodbye

It's coming on Christmas

They're cutting down trees

They're putting up reindeer

And singing songs of joy and peace

I wish I had a river

I could skate away on

[ Joni Mitchell Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

What's That They Say About Details?

It's hard to keep my fingers from playing in the mess we've made after we are done.


My pussy is puffy, and sticky/slick like wet velvet. We were using the huge pink toy that leaves road rash if it's not lubed up enough. Even though I got it nice and slippery first, my hole is strawberry red and hot to the touch.


Sir snuck up on me this time. We had already played earlier in the day and I was just settling in for a nap. He called back and told me to get Pink, the lube, and the Hitachi. It had to go in. Now.


I don't remember if I've tried to explain what being stretched open like that feels like. At first, it seems impossible for it to go in. It presses against me and my pussy won't budge. I can feel my muscles tighten to fight it. When it starts to give, I can't help but suck in my breath. I swear I'm holding it the entire time we are using that monster.


I can't spread my legs wide enough or lift my hips at the correct angle to make the intrusion any easier. The lube does the trick of course and it moves slowly up into my body. It's crammed against my gspot as it slides in, which starts things pulsing and contracting, only it feels like there is no room for pulsing and contracting, which makes everything even more intense.


It doesn't take long before I'm nearly screaming, especially after adding the over-the-top buzz of the Hitachi. I wonder sometimes if I'm not hurting his ears. I'm so loud when I let go like that. It's embarrassing, really.

Shameless.

Now It's Just a Challenge

He's not into blowjobs.

They don't do much for him. Never have. Sure, it kind of feels good, but he's never cum from that alone. He even has a hard time keeping it up during one.

What the fuck??? I am pretty sure this is the first time in my entire life that I have heard those words. He's 21, for fuck's sake! What 21 year old man doesn't like a good cock-sucking? 31. 61. 81. It's unheard of.

"They just aren't doing it right," was my initial reaction.

Sure enough, though, after a few moans and groans the first time in the car, he went limp.

He says it was that the car was uncomfortable because what I was doing felt nice.

Nice?? Nice?? Hmmmm.

I do believe I now have a project.

It's good to have goals.

Earning More Punishment

"What did you let him do?"
Sir is questioning me about my next rendezvous with the boy.

It was just another make-out session in the car. We couldn't do a lot more than we already had.
But still, we did more than kiss and bite so I had to be honest.

"Did he finger your pussy?"

I tried to resist. I told Boy "No" at first. I was at the very end of my period and might still be bleeding just a little bit. All of the biting and kissing had me dripping, though . My nipples seem to be directly wired to my clit and it was throbbing hard. My pussy was demanding attention NOW. I tried to resist, but in the end, I begged for his fingers. I licked each one clean afterward.

"What else did you do? Did you get to suck him?"

Yes. That is a given, really. There is no way I could resist after feeling it so hard under the fabric of his pants. As much as I love that feeling of friction under my palm, I had to see it. I'd never seen an uncut cock in person. I was worried that I wouldn't quite know what to do or that my usual um...talents...wouldn't work the same. No worries though. Even though he was terribly uncomfortable in my tiny car, I managed to elicit a few honest moans out of him.

"You know you wil have to be punished again, don't you? You have been very bad. You understand."

I knew. I know, yet I continue.

My spanking was longer and harder this time. I could feel the sting of the spot on my bottom hours later at work. My fucking was rough. No build-ups. No easing in. I was simply a hole to be fucked as Sir wished. I was sweaty and panting when it was over.

In his whispers at the end, he reminded me that I am his. If he were closer, there would be no boy. I'd have no time, and no need.

Look! Looklooklook!!

OMG...doing the happy, silly, goofy fan-girl dance.

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Babeland Review: Tristan Taormino's Rough Sex.

Confession: I have got a wicked crush on Tristan Taormino.

That is completely irrelevant to the following review, but I just thought I'd share. I first discovered her through an "In Bed With Susie Bright" interview (all things wonderful come through Susie, it seems). Anyway...it's many books, articles, and movies later and my crush is in full swing, so of course I wanted a chance to review her latest DVD, Rough Sex. Coming from Tristan, it had to be smart and sexy.

Rough Sex has a 5 scenes with interviews in-between. The starlets tell of their fantasies and their limitations. They describe experiences they have had with rough sex and how they feel about it. The men chime in a little bit on the same topic, and then we see each scene play out.

From the DVD description over Tristan's Puckerup.com:

Adrianna is in the shower and thinks she’s alone. Satine is stranded on a
deserted road until a good Samaritan stops to help. Francesca is tired of being
taken for granted. When Marie gets caught in a lie, she faces the consequences.
Sasha explores her submissive side, then flips the script and takes control.

I have to admit that I jumped to the Sasha Grey scene first. I've never seen her work and she's hella famous right now. I can see why. She is stunningly beautiful. She was well matched with Danny Wylde in the scene. He's young and adorably sexy with a glint in his eye to match hers.

What struck me about their scene (and the rest of them, for that matter), was that they weren't actually all that rough. Maybe I watch too much internet porn. Maybe I am jaded from seeing too many BDSM photos. I'm not sure. Just about all of the scenes had some slapping, spitting, and hair pulling. There were some red bottoms and some scratch marks, too, but most of the 'rough' came from the fantasies they were acting out.

Satine and Derrick did an amazing job of playing out their scenarios that it was easy to suspend disbelief. So did Marie and Julius. There didn't have to be bruises and red marks to get sucked into the fantasies as if they were really happening. Francesca and Christian were fun to watch as she played the aggressor instead of him. I giggled out loud when she asked him at the beginning of her assault "Do you like that? Do you???" He seemed to offer an honestly uncertain reply, "I don't know!" Adrianna and Marco were fun to watch too, with a lot of amazing deep throat action. I've got a bit of a fetish for that lately, so maybe that's it, but I really enjoyed every minute.

I found myself watching Rough Sex over and over again. I wanted to pick up more detail, like facial expressions or whispers between the actors. The entire thing is beautifully shot and the performers appear to be having a wonderful time with each other. The sex is rough enough to be interesting but not harsh enough to scare off someone unfamiliar with the territory. In fact, there is a short how-to scene on safe choking techniques, so the DVD is perfect for couples that may be curious but inexperienced.

I Wish I Could Feel Them

His hands were visibly shaking.


His fingers trembled as he slid his hand from my ankle to my knee, then further up to trace the lace at the top.

In that moment, the bold talking, confident boy I'd been talking to for weeks showed his age and inexperience. I think he was shocked to be getting his wish so easily.

When he leaned in to kiss me, I felt his lips shudder too. He was tentative at first. As soon as he felt me moan, though, under the pressure of his teeth on my lip, his confidence started to come back.

We didn't have a lot of time or a lot of room to play in my tiny car. We did manage to kiss and bite and grope a bit. Turns out, he really likes the biting part. That would be so very welcome if he could do so without leaving marks behind. As it was, I went home with some questionable scratches and bruises in places that are difficult to blame on the dog.

So much for treading lightly.